I am an advocate for change in the realms of men’s mental health with regards to exploring their own sexuality and fetishes. This is a subject that has been covered numerous times from the female point of view. I am here as an advocate for change from a mans angle.
WHY DO YOU CARE ABOUT MEN’S MENTAL HEALTH?
I will get back to you on that.
MY PENIS SIZE IS MAKING ME FEEL DEPRESSED
Let me ask you something. Have you ever felt inadequate due to your penis size?
Well I have and let me start off by saying that it caused me great depression. It gave me social anxiety. To the point that I would shy away from peeing at urinals at all costs. I felt embarrassed. Dick-shaming was lingering in my mind at all times.
Why am I not well endowed? Why don’t I have any sort of bulge when wearing boxing shorts? I often asked myself.
I felt unmanly, angry, hopeless, self-deprived, worthless. It affected my self-esteem, my confidence. I felt like an inferior man.
I systematically dodged so many opportunities to make out with girls because of my penis size. I was terrified of rejection and small penis humiliation. I was self-conscious about everything.
I needed to get the negativity out of my mind.
MY FETISHES MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A PERVERTED FREAK
I always felt like a perverted, creepy freak when I was growing up because I had a fetish for stinky feet and I wanted to be sexually dominated. I felt awful for having such weird and strange thoughts and fetishes. It was embarrassing and awkward.
Do I have some underlying psychological issues?
Do I have a disorder?
Is there a cure?
Are my fetishes extreme?
Am I normal?
Why do I feel guilty?
I constantly asked myself these questions. I felt disgusted with myself and ashamed of myself.
I was fed up with life.
I HATE MY NAKED BODY
I hated my scrawny body and my pot belly. I couldn’t stop myself overindulging in unhealthy, processed foods. My stomach was bloated all the time. I felt and looked hideous.
I struggled to deal with rude and unkind remarks.
“Why is your body out of proportion?”
“Ew, your legs look like twigs.”
“Being that skinny is seriously disgusting.”
All those negative comments gave me a complex and I was going through an emotional breakdown.
INNER CHATTER DRIVING ME OUT OF MY MIND
I had this voice inside my head. Consistently in action, rationalizing too much. I remember feeling anxious and stressed all the time.
The voice in my head would say things like:
“Your penis size is a joke.”
“Girls are not into skinny guys.”
“No girl in her right mind will ever accommodate your foot fetish.”
“Oh! Why did you say that.”
“You can never do anything right.”
I couldn’t control over analyzing past conversations. I was pessimistic about what might happen in the future.
I was desperate to silence this frustratingly aggravating inner voice and I longed for a calm and clear mind.
I went online to seek help. I was looking for a male self development/sex coach. Someone who had experienced similar things to me. Someone I could really relate to.
I did come across numerous influential men. However, they mainly focused on men’s self-development, masculinity and semen-retention.
In my wonderment, I found countless women expressing their views on fetishes, kinks, feminism, sex work, incels, women empowerment, BDSM, sex toys, erectile dysfunction, premature ejaculation, small-penis syndrome, misogynism. Online was oversaturated with dominant female voices. It was impressive.
So, I thought to myself I would love to hear this from a man’s perspective. I searched online for an indefinitely long period of time. I recall feeling frustrated and disappointed with my results.
SELF-ACCEPTANCE & INNER WORK
Two years ago, I took the bull by the horns and I visited a Dominatrix/sex worker.
My life changed when I dipped my toe in a kinkier pool. Having a close relationship with a sex worker as well as having consistent sessions led me to the path to unconditional self-acceptance.
For several years, I tried suppressing my fetishes. It was the most excruciating experience.
So, I now realise that my fetishes are not creepy. As matter of fact my fetishes are very common.
I no longer feel ashamed of my body or my penis size.
However, I found true inner peace from the moment I went on a journey to explore my inner self. I practiced mindfulness and positive thinking. I choose love and peace over anger, guilt and shame.
I moved away from low vibrational energies. I made a lot of changes. I introduced new habits into my life e.g. waking up early, practicing gratitude, meditation, journaling, exercising, healthy eating/living, reading self-development books etc.
I let go of things that did not serve me. I had detached so far from my old self. I feel a bit vulnerable at times.
Nevertheless, I am proud of myself and I celebrate my individuality. I went through a lot emotionally. However, I am like a phoenix rising from the ashes.
HOW WOULD THE HIP-HOP COMMUNITY REACT?
I wrote Triple-Formed in the same style as a Hip-Hop concept album. To give you an example. Imagine reading Kendrick Lamar – To Pimp A Butterfly as a book.
I am intrigued to see how the Hip-Hop community will react to Triple-Formed. Mainstream rappers are braggadocious about their large penis size. There’s also a lot of misogyny in rap music. So how will the Hip-Hop community react to a book that tackles issues surrounding small penis-size! Male insecurities! Female Domination!
Will the Hip-Hop community respect me for being courageous, open and honest or will they crucify me for taking them out of their comfort zones!
Nevertheless, I’m not trying to blend in. I’m just a normal guy and I wear my heart on my sleeve.
Submissive males should be free to speak their minds and to embrace who they really are without the fear of being judged.
Advocate For Change Worldwide. I want to help others become open-minded to Femdomme. I want to help others become open-minded and to have a better knowledge of Sex Workers/Sex Work and to move away from the ‘whore’ stigma.
SO WHY DO YOU CARE ABOUT MEN’S MENTAL HEALTH? AN ADVOCATE FOR CHANGE
There are a substantial number of men out there who are insecure about their penis size, bodies, kinks, fetishes and this is causing men to face a Masculinity Crisis.
I’m passionate about helping other men because I have been through a lot of emotional pain and I understand it.
If only there was a site like this when I was 18 years old. I would have taken the opportunity to change my life at an earlier age. And this is why I am an Advocate For Change.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. If you know someone who might benefit from reading my story and knowing about my Advocacy for Change mission please share this with them.
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