Howzit hanging Kinksters? In today’s blog I’m going to talk about the LeftOvers to my debut book Triple-Formed.
The leftover song I’m going to talk about in today’s blog is a remake to Eminem’s Stan. I wrote this song just after my second session. Are you ready? Bammo! ?
Song: Dan
Written by: Podopheleus
Characters: Dan & Mistress I Lash
[Verse 1: (Dan)]
Dear Mistress I emailed you, why no reply?
I check my emails all the time, you tweeted three times last night
Mistress, I sent two emails last week, can’t be arsed to read ’em?
Well, your website is misleading, I have got the confirmation
You’ve received em you’ve been posting and tweeting the whole weekend
So, What’s the latest? And how was babysitting, Mistress?
I guess you like everyone knowing your business
But that’s cool your interests are my interests, Little Miss. Mischief
I loved our roleplay sesh, you made a hot head mistress
By the way I had a Mrs
She’s nothing like you though, a sadist!
I know you probably hear this every day, I’mma fan, your biggest!
I even printed every photo from your instagram
I even pay twelve ninety nine a month for your catalogue
Damn! I signed-up, subscribed to OnlyFans, I had spent grands
On custom clips, hope you get this, ma’am, hit me back
Just to chat, truly yours, most loyal sub, this is Dan
(Chorus)
Your not satisfied in a single role
Don’t recall don’t recall
Shadows of the past, mingling of souls
Don’t recall don’t recall
A taste of heaven, a glimpse of inferno
You don’t recall don’t recall
It reminds me that you must be mad!
You must be mad!
[Verse 2: (Dan)]
Dear Mistress, you still ain’t emailed, but posting clips for sale
I ain’t cut, I just think it’s fucked up you don’t answer subs!
I had commented and I’d liked every one of your posts
Oh! Am I a Couch-Potato sitting around holding on to hope?
All I think about is you, Mistress! Nothing else comes close!
I am not even employable, the only thing I enjoy is watching you!
I do suffer from anxiety and depression
Hence why I need a session, Ma’am, I was on medication
But I’m fine now, I stopped taking on march the eighteenth
Betrothed to misery, Sheesh! that works out to twenty eight weeks
The day of our first session, I love you, Mistress
That’s my confession, your Other subs don’t get you
Like i do, we got that connection
Thinking of you in a wretched place, red faced, headaches
I love being tied up, please whip me, I’m addicted to harsh pain
Is that defined as criminal?
I need to see you, I am stressed
I even got a tattoo of your face across the chest
And every single day my mouth hurts is filled with ulcers
When i don’t see you
I can’t control such emotional outbursts
Mistress I Lash, reply back, cos’ of you I tortured my kittycat!
We’re alike, you and I, see, I’m as sadistic as a born Domme
To beat boredom, studied Norman, watched violent porno’s
I subscribed and signed up to sinister internet forums
You gotta reply, Ma’am,
I’ll be the purest sub you’ll ever lose
Sincerely yours, Dan
P.S.: We should live together too
(Chorus)
Your not satisfied in a single role
Don’t recall don’t recall
Shadows of the past, mingling of souls
Don’t recall don’t recall
A taste of heaven, a glimpse of inferno
I don’t recall don’t recall
It reminds me that you must be mad!
You must be mad!
[Verse 3: (Dan)]
Dear Miss. I’m-Too-Good-to-mail–submissives
This’ll be the last email I ever send, PRINCESS!
It’s been a month, and still no word—I don’t deserve it?
You’re a Goddess I love and Worship! Didn’t you like your gift? The chained corset!
So, this is my cassette I’m sending’ you, I hope you hear it
You feel it, like when you put out your cigarette on my chest
It blisters, pain lingers, when your emails get delivered
And you are posting spitter clips on your fucking twitter
See, you don’t session on weekends you babysit Cynthia
Your niece, it’s quite funny what you can learn on social media!
Sorry, Mistress, but i accidently broke your ornament!
However, i replaced it and put it back on your doorstep
I bought you another two, so, you now have a full set!
When i don’t see you, Mistress, it affects my self-esteem
My doctor told me to carry on taking paroxetine
Well, he can go and do one and fuck you too Goddess, I, blaspheme
And when you dream I hope you can’t sleep and you scream about it;
I hope your conscience eats at you and you can’t breathe without D
See, should I slice [*slicing*] my arms open and bleed
Everywhere, you Bitch! Miss-I’m-outta-your-league
Hey Bitch-tress, did you hear about the Pymmes Park torture last year!
Some lady was proper tortured, she tried to mask her tears
But he forced her to eat her own damn ear
Do you know who that chick was? That was m_ other Ha_ _, De_ _!
(Chorus)
Your not satisfied in a single role
Don’t recall don’t recall
Shadows of the past, mingling of souls
Don’t recall don’t recall
A taste of heaven, a glimpse of inferno
You don’t recall don’t recall
It reminds me, that you must be mad!
You must be mad!
[Verse 4: (Mistress I Lash)]
Hi Dan, many thanks for your patience in how quiet I have been
Been off comms whilst I travel, but back into the swing
Of things, thank you so much Dan, for your perseverance!
I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings i hope you are kidding about your kitten
Listen, if that is true you deserve to rot in fricken’ prison!
Please realize due to the erratic nature of my lifestyle
I can’t write while traveling, sessions and photo shooting
I came home and completely, freaked out, over random footprints
You got some issues, Dan, I think you need some counseling
I just cannot fathom out why you would tantrum out like this And what’s this shit about us meant to live together?
That type of shit’ll make me not want us to sesh together
And that story you told about the girl in the park
The tape cut out sense a hurtle through the dark
Dan, you need to get back on your meds I am worried you will end up dead
I will say this it’s imperative that you visit a shrink
Before you go apeshit, and I am glad your committed, but Dan
Why are you so mad? Try to understand that I adore my OnlyFans
I just don’t want you to do some schizo shit
But I will not tolerate being called a Bitch! That’s called being a dick!
Listen Dan, how the hell do you know where I live?
That’s stalking shit let’s call it quits! Creep! Talking shit, oh please cork it!
Causing me to raise an eyebrow, FUCK! I think there’s someone in my house
(Dan) “Hey Mistress I…. it’s time to blow someone’s brains out!” [*Bang*] ____
Keep in mind that this song is unedited and it’s nothing less of perfection.
So, when did you write this song?
06/07/2019
When did you start writing Triple-Formed
June 2020
What inspired you to write this song?
During that time I was reading Nailbiter and Sunstone (image comics) and I was listening to Eminem’s relapse album quite a bit. I had an epiphany during that time to mix the two worlds together. Horror/serial killer meets BDSM!
Have a read on why I believe journaling/scripting rhymes is good for mental health.
What is the difference between this Dan and the Dan in Triple-Formed?
This Dan is psychotic and sadistic. let me point out that the last line of verse 3 reads:
“Do you know who that chick was? That was m_ other Ha_ _, De_ _!”
I will fill in the blanks.
“Do you know who that chick was? That was my other Half, Dear! “
Holy fuck, right?
This Dan never dealt with his inner demons and this is why he became a danger to himself and others.
This Dan is a flawed character in every sense of the word. At times he doesn’t speak English like a native. E.g. he will say things like “reply back” “spitter clips” etc. Which is inefficient use of English.
I intended to use the song ‘Dan’ as the first song for Triple-Formed. Beginning with the end and then telling the story in reverse. I was going to delve deeper into a serial killer’s mind. What makes a serial killer tick? At the same time I wanted to combine it with lots of BDSM fun. I intended to look into how Dommes go about vetting and screening their clients.
The Dan in Triple-Formed is nothing like this Dan. The Dan in Triple-Formed is anxious and super paranoid. Even though Dan (Triple-Formed) has a negative attitude, he is not a danger to others. He is just trying to find himself.
So, what happened?
As crazy as it sounds. I radically changed my life in 1-year. I feel like a different person now.
I couldn’t bring myself to write Dan’s story as a serial killer. It no longer resonated with who I am.
Furthermore. I’ve come to the realisation that I will need to rewrite verse 4 again. Mistress I Lash’s response, feels soft and seems to be unrealistic. I didn’t alter the verse before posting it because I don’t want to waste my time and energy in something I’m not planning to use. However, if I was serious about finishing this song, I would collaborate with a Domme, to write a response to Dan.
Additionally, The last line of verse 4 reads:
(Dan) “Hey Mistress I…. it’s time to blow someone’s brains out!” [*Bang*]
I had every intention of ending the story with a cliff-hanger. However, deep down inside, I already know the truth. The truth is that Dan committed suicide. For this reason alone I did not want to continue with the story because it felt negative.
Triple-Formed is not an autobiography. However, at times it feels like I am telling a deeply personal story. I felt positive but calm when I wrote Triple-Formed. I felt something special when I wrote Triple-Formed. It’s like I found my life purpose. To freely self-express myself and to help others. Find out more about Why I Wrote Triple-Formed – this is a very honest and open account of my own mental health and sexual exploration that led me to write the book.
There we have it guys. I would love to hear your feedback and thoughts on my LeftOvers song – ‘Dan‘? Feel free to hit me up on Twitter and Instagram, or via the site.
Much Kink Love
